Now that I’ve fulfilled my “be an asshole” quota for the day, let me say this:
I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of being the happy medium of cool and goofy and sexy with a personality that allows others to be whoever the fuck they want to without asking ANYTHING of them. I’m tired of being the best friend who takes shit all the damn time. I’m tired of being the fucking guy who’s cool and charming for all of three weeks and for no real reason loses his appeal.
i’m tired of being a FUCKING failure at EVERYTHING in life that MATTERS. and i THOUGHT i was done BITCHING and MOANING on the GOD DAMNED internet. i thought i was DONE feeling this way.
for ONCE i’d just like to have someone I’d do anything for do anything for me right back. I’d LOVE to be the person who’s told that he’s as important to a person as they are to him, and i’d LOVE to be treated like it.
I’D LIKE AN IOTA OF HAPPINESS - of love - SURROUNDED BY A SAFE AND SECURE FEELING THAT FOR ONCE…JUST ONCE…THINGS MIGHT BE OKAY FOR A WHILE.